It was humbling to see SP Lawrence Khong admitting on the first session of the conference to all delegates that the church has not grown since we have entered into the G12 vision. It was humbling to see how SP’s willingness to share on our challenges and failures. I was humbled. But more than being humbled, I was encouraged to see that with these new insights, it has helped me to better understand the heartbeat of the church and G12 Vision and most importantly, the heartbeat of Christ.
More than understanding methodologies in running and growing the cell, the conference has once again brought back the dream that is in my heart and reigniting it again. On the first day of the conference, I was challenged by the Lord to “dare to dream again”. Indeed, the dream has somehow been dormant for a while. Maybe it’s due to the various demands at this phase of my life and maybe it’s also due to the hardened heart from the various disappointments. I chucked this thought aside. However, on the second day, the Lord challenged once again through Ps Claudia’s message on “Reaching for the Star”. The Lord reminded me on the calling and the purpose that He has set before me and I am to “follow the star” and in the same vein I need to be trained, equipped and am patient as I follow the “star”. And at this juncture, he is training and equipping me. On the third day, I was furthered reminded on “what am I going to do about the revelation God has given me?”. It dawned on me that its no longer about what I know in my mind about what God has in store for me, but how I need to have a “heart of flesh” so that I can love, hope and have the faith to believe again.
The Lord really ended the conference for me in a sweet note with Delirious? ministering me through their song “History Maker”. What ministered and touched me was when they shared on Isa 58, which has inspired them to write the song. As I was seeking the Lord and preparing my heart for the conference the week before, the Lord led me to read Isa 58 but I didn’t find any significant in it then and how it would relate to the conference. As Delirious? shared, I was moved and received afresh the dream and calling the Lord has given me back in 2003 “to feed the hungry, to clothe the naked and to give drink to the thirsty”.
I was thankful for the conference, for it has once again reignited my heart and my dream, preparing it for the journey the Lord has called me to.
“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter – when you see the naked, to clothe him,” Isa 58:6-7 (NIV)
“Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’. The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.’” Matt 25 :37-40 (NIV)
