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Yes, I got a virus attack….nope not on my lappy but a viral infection in my right ear. The condition is call Vertibular Neuronitis. It affected my Vertigo and what it does…it literally knocks me out. This affected my balance and vision. I was like literally swaying from side to side (sounds like when an earthquake occurs) and my vision is sort of blurry. The world around me was like swaying. I can’t walk straight and have terrible nausea feeling. IT WAS TERRIBLE!! First time in my life so jia luk that I have to be admitted to hospital for disgnosis and observation.
I was given 7 days MC plus the one day I got from my GP prior to my admission to TTSH to find out what happen, as the jab given by my GP was ineffective to my “giddy spell”. Thank God, I was only admitted for a day. This 7 days was akin to a forced rest….I was literally bed bound for about 3 days. I couldn’t even read as the words would sway from left to right and worse, it nauseated me whenever I read. (Thought I can use the time to read the journals and prepare for my 2nd assignment for the module Abnormal Behaviour). This explained why I have not been able to update this blog…not that I don’t want to but I simply can’t.
Despite the rest, I was restless and anxious. I got deadlines to meet…my articles review is due on 28 May and a few outstanding items at work. Furthermore, there are so many things to be attended to. I was gently rebuked by my boss and also by the Lord. In very clear instance, I was forced to rest as I have been in “overdrive” since my study started. During this time, I was reminded by the Lord “that His grace is sufficient for me and that His strength is make perfect in my weakness”. Lo and behold, despite the 7 days forced rest, I am still able to complete my assignment on time. Hallelujah!!! (Just finished my assignment, printed and ready for submission later in the day)
“Be still and know that I am God…” Ps 46:10
I took a “well deserved break” after my mid-term exam…gave myself abt a week or so with no academic readings and studies on my subjects, but guess what happened?? In the span of these 2 weeks, I was like falling sick twice and 1 very jia luk one just over last weekend. For the first one, I caught a flu and was feverish over 2 fridays ago, and over the last weekend, I got a gastric flu and gastritis…2 in 1 combo. The feeling is horrid….my stomach and intestines like all jumbled up….can’t sit, can’t lie down, can’t stand….woah!!! It suppose to be a good break to catch up some sleep and readings (non-academic stuffs…books, magazines, newspaper etc) and yet I have to spend the time fighting off all the discomforts and uneasiness….sigh……
I was thinking this was like so much how the Chinese will term “æº…éª¨é ”, in another word “cheap bone”. While working and striving, all will seems well; but once stop to enjoy or take a break, all ailments will befall. Hahaha…i am not cursing myself…don’t worry . Just find the analogy intresting and how it seems to reflect my current situation.
However, this brought me to a deeper reflection on what Ps Melvyn shared in service yesterday. “The moment we stop serving, we will most probably backslide”. Isn’t it true that whenever we stop serving the Lord, we will not have the accountabilty in place with our leaders and also the people we served. This actually puts us in very vulnerable situations and positions where we can easily take the “raod most travelled”….the wide and easy path which leads to destruction. (Mat 7:13-14)
“Preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction” (2 Tim 4:2)
“Therefore, take up the full armour of God, that you may be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm” (Eph 6:13)
“And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary.” (Gal 6:9)
  
